Riding The Bipolarcoaster

Posted by Jon, onehumanbeing on April 27, 2010

Listen to this sound collage…

 

About the Bipolarcoaster

Imagine a roller coaster ride that you could never get off of – everything you do has to be done while the roller coaster goes round and round again… that’s how I live my life.

The cycles I experience living with bipolar disorder (what used to be called manic depression) range from highs called hypo-mania to very deep lows of depression.

These cycles can happen very quickly for me –  from low to high and back to low again in a week or so. But these cycles happen inside other cycles which happen inside other cycles, and so on – so I can have low/high/lows or low/low/highs or any other combination of lows and highs.

Even though bipolar disorder is called a mood disorder, I think of it as a mind/thought wave frequency phenomenon of some kind, based on my on experience. Imagine it as a constantly changing radio dial picking up different intuitive frequencies that causes the brain to process information from different perspectives.

Instead of having your brain working steady on a regular frequency – what we call normal – creating a rather homogeneous personal identity, the bipolar mind has to encompass a larger range of experiences into a single personal identity.

This sound collage tries to capture a small bit of the larger, nonstop, relentless nature of this experience which dominates my life in many ways…

Something I’ve been thinking a lot this last week while going through a very bad depression and working on this collage – “Making art is easy, it’s being an artist that’s hard…”

Source Material

This sound collage includes samples and loops from John Lennon, Bob Dylan, The Beatles, Jimi Hendrix, and Daniel Lanois, along with various roller coaster sounds…

  • John LennonWatching The Wheels
  • Bob DylanUp To Me, If Not for You
  • The BeatlesHelter Skelter
  • Jimi HendrixManic Depression
  • Daniel LanoisI Love You

Note: As soon as I can find the information I had about the roller coaster sounds, I’ll post those here too…

Until next time, best of health…

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  • Barbara Phares said,

    Jon, I want to say, that is the best description of bipolar I have ever read. I must say, I only had a small touch of that years ago when I was going through therapy. Thank God I don’t have to go through that all the time. You amaze me at how you are coping. Love you.
    I tried to download and it went to player. I haven’t listened to it yet.

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